All the little blessings

This has been a week that has continually affirmed God's plan and his hand on our lives.  It all started last week when we went to the Royals game with D & S.  On the way, S (baby's birthfather) asked what we had been learning about in church that day.  I replied that we were studying Matthew 7 in our class.  He responded that there was a verse in Matthew 7 that he really liked, "Ask and you shall receive, seek and you shall find, knock and the door shall be opened."  Brandon and I were a bit taken aback and replied with a bit of awe that this was the very verse we had been discussing that morning.  I felt like the Lord was telling us, "I'm here and I'm in this with you."

On Friday, I had the pleasure of spending the evening at the mall with D.  We talked about so many things both related and unrelated to the adoption.  I learned about her love of candles and her favorite scent at Bath & Body Works, her childhood pets, her favorite Disney movie, the things that she enjoys cooking, etc., etc.  It was such a special time for me to continue to build relationship with this woman who is carrying the child she intends for us to raise.  When we took a moment to sit, I mentioned how this weekend presented a unique holiday experience for the two of us.  She agreed and said, "You must be so excited!"  It allowed me to further realize that perhaps maybe I could be.  We also talked about how she planned to handle naming the baby, to which she replied "I thought you would probably name him - he's yours"!

Today is the first time I have attended a Mother's Day church service in at least two years.  The first one I attended after we realized we were having difficulty getting pregnant blind-sided me, and I felt I needed to avoid them out of self-preservation after that.  This year, we are the closest we have ever been to our dream of being parents and for today, I'm going to allow myself to enjoy it.  D even called this morning to leave me a message and started with "Happy Mother's Day!  Well, almost anyway . . . "  Yes, she's right.  It is a happy mother's day.